A few years ago, I pretty much felt the same way and put similar sentiments here on SI.
Ever have a day where you want to scream Fck Fck Fck. I hate my Fckn life. and let it all out. Just unleash, just so you can get moving again.
Do that. You'll want to be alone for a number of reasons, but do it. It helps and you will feel better.
I can forgive others cause I can see there reasons their life their and can accept mistakes
I'm the same way, but it's because you know your motivations and thoughts. With others, we chalk it up to mistake because, hey, they probably didn't MEAN to do it. But we know what what we did--when, why, how--there is no benefit of the doubt since there is no doubt.
How about as a WS, how do you forgive yourself
Self forgiveness is difficult and overrated. Make the changes that you need, be trustworthy, become the person that you want to be. Remember that discipline and punishment are not the same thing.
I would love a new skin a new face, so I don't have look at her anymore.
I grew a beard to hide behind, I don't think that's a viable option for you.
[This message edited by darkbeast at 11:36 AM, October 4th (Friday)]