Just call me Wonder
I have to say that after my emotional crash on Thursday- this weekend has been amazing. We are 9weeks into R and I know we still have a lot of road to travel...but it has been really great- and HONEST for the first time since this started.
It has been two days since I have cried.
Since I have had a rock in my chest.
Since I have felt like I cannot breathe.
It has been two days since a mind movie has played.
It has been two days since I have felt truly depressed and angry.
It has been two days of open and honest communication between H and me. (And I? Whatever)
There is so much we both have learned about eachother through this.
I am so proud of the man that I married right now. THIS is the man that I stayed for. THIS is the reason I chose to stay and fight.
I know things may get rocky again- but the man I have seen over the last 2 days (2 months really) is the man that I love.
And for the first time in a long time- I know I made the right decision.
I thought I had stopped pretending. I was wrong.
Me- BS 41
Him- WS 38 and STBX
2 DS- 15 and 16
DDay 1- 07-24-2013
DDay 2: EA w/CoW, 06-15-2017