Honestly? All part of the roller coaster, IMO. I had moments -- nay, DAYS -- when I would have happily divorced the jerk. I had days of total apathy. Etc, etc At 5 months out... emotions are still flip-flopping wildly. And yes, sometimes reactions were actually more acute after a "good" weekend. Something about the contrast between "normality" and all of the strong feelings you're having.