I made a very positive step today I think. I had written a previous post trying to get peoples' opinions on whether or not to confess to my xBF that I cheated on him. My counselor thinks that I'm stuck in my current situation because I have so much guilt about that. I've realized in IC that I think I somewhat deserve what happened to me. After my last post, I decided to not tell the xBF because it would do more harm to him.
Yesterday I got an email though from a female friend talking about how great I am, and how much I didn't deserve everything that happened. I felt like a hypocrite, because I don't feel like a great person myself. Talked about this email in IC, and my IC told me to confess my prior actions to this friend. She's also friends with my xBF, but closer friends with me.
So, I did it today! I told her about what happened, and how I feel about it. She responded that she was shocked and never would have suspected it, but that she still loves me and thinks I'm a great person. It makes me feel good to know that I was honest to her about myself. I like that I'm no longer trying to hide the bad parts of myself.