I've always worried more about what H and DS wanted, thought, felt, etc. about anything. Until H started W.
For the first year of our mess and no SI - even WORSE.
Finally - I can look at challenges and opportunities and be excited and think of things logically and for ME and know and have faith in myself that I can make nearly anything work.
People here showed me that.
I'm celebrating because I just got a part-time paid internship in an academic library which is VERY hard to get and majorly what I want because I want to work in an academic library after I finish my master's degree but its nearly impossible to get in WITHOUT experience.
I know working 40 hr real job, taking 6 grad credits per term, and now adding another 15 hours of work per week is going to be hard, its going to be exhausting, its going to piss H off to no end, I'm worried about taking too much of me away from my son but I COULD NOT BE HAPPIER!
And I like it.
Mom nearly died last week of a 90% blockage of her LAD.
I called her this morning when I had doubts about whether or not I could handle this.
She said "of anyone I know, YOU can handle this" and she doesn't even know about WH's and I's issues.
Between my family's support and my virtual friend's support - I have begun to believe again in the niceness of people and have been shown that if I focus on the good and minimize the bad, the good grows, the bad matters less and less.
I hope everyone on SI finds something to get excited about, I hope everyone on SI can have an open, positive mind to recognize any opportunity, despite their suffering.
Hugs to you all.
If I get super-duper busy, I'm still wishing for everyone struggling - peace and happiness. And hopefully the realization that no other person, a WS, AP, or anyone else for that matter, can take it from you if you grab it and hold onto it for yourself.
Oh, and yay prozac but maybe I can quit now?