I feel like she wants to try but can't get back the physical part of a relationship with me and that's holding her back.
Successful relationships begin and end with good communication. Have you asked her about this? Rather than trying to read her feelings and meanings in her eyes, have you asked her about a physical relationship? Does she want one? Does she want one with you?
I know we love each other and are each the others love of their lives. Does she just want to be my friend and is scared?
How can you "know" that she loves you and that you are the love of her life when you do not know if she just wants to be a friend?
Again, I think it is time to talk with her about the relationship and what she does and does not expect to happen.
[This message edited by atsenaotie at 9:57 AM, October 10th (Thursday)]