Teething and not feeling well are definite stressors. Hope hubby is doing a bit of caring for you...not A related repairs, just good old fashioned "hot tea and sprite" kind of stuff. Got to remember our marriage is bigger then surviving infidelity. I lose sight of that at times. Sometimes it is good to do regular M stuff like care for each other...just have fun together....just have fun by yourself.
I, too, have done the "all nighter" processing thing....nothing wrong with that. Just don't let the inevitable "crash" rattle you.
I, too, have learned there is value in holding in emotions for a bit. I am not talking about through sweeping or repressing. I am talking about holding it in, leaning into the feeling as long as you can, then hold it a bit more. It helps us grow because sometimes you never have to let it out...you find your way through it all on your own...very empowering! Other times you have to let it out, but I have found what you let out can be very different them what you would have if you immediately expressed yourself. Many times I start out thinking my wife needs to change only to find out the real change necessary is in me!
And sometimes I just explode in area of tears or anger.
It's tough tough stuff. Tonight I grateful for these trials. I see it as an opportunity to mature parts of me that are shockingly immature.
You are learning just like I am, minus all the reading!
"There are 3 types of people in this world, blakesteele. Those who are born smart, those who learn to be smart, and there are those like you...who have to fake it 'till they make it!"--my favorite college professor said to me on graduation day. Follow me at your own peril!!'
Keep the faith.