ME: 55 BS
I am sorry that you struggled through the day...completely understandable.
It honestly does get easier. My Dday is 19 days away, entering year 4. My life is no longer in turmoil. Yes, on 10/29 I will relive that dreaded Dday in my mind but I will relive it without the intense pain. Hopefully, I will relive it quickly and then get on with my day.
It will get better.
HIM: 63 WH
Married: 30 years
in R 6 years and it's working but he is putting 200% into it (as he should) to make it right again.
The truth hurts, but I have never seen it cause the pain that lies do.