A few days ago my H had to drop a coworker, from out of town, off at a hotel after work. Talk about a major freak out! Then when he got home, he said I need to tell you about my day and you're not going to like it.
As he told me of the events that day there were a lot of red flags, one of which was a work related call from the OW, but everything was explainable.
I'm thinking, Yeah right, everything is falling together to conveniently and I don't have a clue how I can verify most of them.
He provided me proof of some before I asked. I've been able to verify all but one thing, which I expect to reveal itself today just as we go about our normal business.
It must have been extremely hard for him to come & tell me these things, knowing how I would react (I'm a crier & the more I try to prevent/control it the worse it gets). He has said... I don't like to tell you things I know will hurt you, but it's what you have told me you need, total transparency.
Now I have a smile on my face, but a heavy heart. I don't even know how I can feel to extremely different feelings at the same time.
My head knows he did everything just as I have asked & I've been able to verify, but I'm fighting the "I've trusted before & got burned mentality"
I'm looking forward to the day I realize I trust him again. I know it'll never be 100%, but 99% would be nice. 
D-Day January 2013
prior EA in the 90's
me 50's WH 50's
NC-several, last broken NC 7/2013 (?)
Married 30+ years, 2 kids
Want to believe it's over, but is it really? Will I ever trust again?
