About two months ago, I found out my wife was having an affair with one of our close friends...well, that's what I thought the guy was anyway.
It was a short affair, a month or so of physical, with the emotional side a couple months before that.
We've talked, a lot, since then. We're looking at MCs, though the start of the school year put us off of our game on that a bit (we both work in academia), and hope to make our first session in a week. Things have been going better than I expected them to, two months ago.
But this last week has been hard, and I don't really know why. We've slipped into old, non-communicative, habits. I'm having trouble talking to her about things, and she's avoiding talking to me as well. There's anger, and stress, and all of the crap we went through at first cropping back up again.
I know it's normal, that it's something to be expected. I'm tired of not smiling, though, and of feeling removed from the world. It'll pass, I've been through post-crisis depression before and come out alright, so I'm just venting some that "Gorramit, I want to feel better now! Wa wa wa!"
Thanks, SI, for letting me vent in a safe place.
(And, yes, I know that she's not talking to the OM. At least unless she's become surprisingly more technology- and security-savvy in the last month than she's ever been before).
