It sounds like you've already made the decision to stay where you are?
Statements like, "I cannot get another job", "It took me a year of earning my way in", "I need my money to survive". IMO these all say I'm staying, but I want to make sure I 'appear' to be doing all I can.
I did the 'appearing' to do all I can and it was all at my wife's expense.
Any form of contact I kept with my AP was also at my wife's expense.
There is always a price, regretfully, just like in my own situation, it's the BS that continues to pay the most.
Are you planning to reconcile your marriage?
D-Days April - Oct. 2007 Recovery started Nov. 2007
"Found Myself", I was right there in my shoes all along!
Search for self called off!
Why Repentance Is Necessary? Because Undeserved Mercy Empowers Entitlement/Sin