How do I get passed the anger? Some days I think I'm in acceptance and ready to move forward then the others (more often than not) I'm so angry. Angry at him for betraying me beyond belief. Angry at the OW for being so aggressive and not having enough self respect to keep her hands to her own fiance. Angry that in an instant my life went from good to terrible all bc of his CHOICE to step out on our marriage and kids as well.
I'm angry that I allow myself to go to such sad places and then ruin my whole day. I'm angry that all of a sudden NOW hes making strides so I can once again be a SAHM but now I don't want to rely on him financially and all I want to be is a SAHM. I was able to stay home with my older three and I want so badly to be home 24/7 with my youngest, I feel hes being deprived of me, and I'm angry that his efforts to allow me to do that are "too little too late".
I'm so angry at EVERYTHING almost all the time. I think I want this to work then I don't feel hes helping me much so then I get angry. When I feel sadness I get angry. Everything seems to come back full circle to his infidelity, EVERYTHING, and its making me sick to be so damn angry all the time.
How do I get passed this???
It has been coming in waves for me lately. Now I'm ok, last week was hell. It will most likely be back. :/
Finally this is R 8/14/13
"Forgiving is a journey; the deeper the wound, the longer the journey".
Hes got his first actual appt with a psychologist this Friday, he went last week to do the questionnaires and paperwork. I'm going to get a referral to an IC this Thursday. We both want to go to MC but I want to wait for him to go to his own IC and me as well so we have more understanding of ourselves to bring to the MC table.
Thank you all for the replies
[This message edited by suposd2btheonly1 at 10:34 PM, October 14th (Monday)]