I think I'm finally finding my way out of crisis mode and now I just feel blah.
H is traveling again this week. Opposite schedules across thousands of miles are making deep conversation impossible. We're taking, texting, sharing, but it doesn't feel like we're doing anything productive.
I know we can't be deep in conversation all the time and that real life has to intercede, but this has all left me feeling flat. I'm not going at warp speed just to survive the day, but I'm not at peace either. The intense pain has given way to a constant dull ache.
I know we're on the right path, but this feeling is so foreign to me. Is this "normal" under the circumstances?
Me: BW 52
Him: WH 55
Married 8 years
4 20-something his and hers kids
Trying to understand the behavior of some people is like trying to smell the color 9