How can this hurt so bad for so long???
How is this depth of pain possible???
Dday anti is Monday. The day he walked out on me. Left me for her. A stranger. Left me for nothing.
Trying to work and suffering. Trying not to vent on customers. I just don't even feel like me today. Holding back the screams.
I would now like to be known as Can!
dday October 21,2012
dday December 20, 2013
I attempted R, he was a lie
I hope you are able to let the feelings exist. And know that we hear you and we get it. You are not alone.
I just hurt. I feel insane.
Yup. We all know; now you do, too. Take deep breaths, feel your feelings, know that you're very sane indeed.
How can this hurt so bad for so long??? How is this depth of pain possible???
I keep telling myself I can't feel joy unless I can also feel pain. And the reason this hurts so bad is that I loved so well - and giving love is as important as receiving it.
These messages help some, but the real pain-killer is, paradoxically, just to feel the pain, which lets it go.
Hang in - you'll probably feel at least some relief on Monday.
Work was awful, it did not go unnoticed. Not a good thing when the crazies show.
I think maybe time of year combined with conversation with h this morning and lots of time driving were not good.
I like,"it hurts so bad because I loved so well"
That hurts too though, I keep thinking he didn't cheat because I did not love well enough, he cheated because he did not love well enough.