It's been years since I was on any time of Anti Depressant or Anxiety medication (since having kids), so I'm obviously OK taking this stuff, I have no idea why it's taken me this long to realize/accept that I need their help again.
I first sought help about 15 years ago because out of the blue I was having anxiety attacks. Anyone who has ever had them can relate to how scary they can be, I thought I was going to die. It's like having what seems to be heart attacks, regularly. Anyway, it's coming back. The last few months with H and I have been especially high-emotion times, and I am just not able to control my physical reactions any longer. I'm already on meds for ADD, but thinking I need some sort of anti depressant/anxiety meds, and sadly, I think I still might need Xanax, I've obviously let this go to far.
So today, I overcome my ADD tendency to put shit off until later, and OMG - the first appointment he has isn't until Dec. Friday 13th! Um ok, not really going to work, although I had them make the appt anyway and put me on the call if someone cancels (which she informed me hasn't moved in over 2 weeks, yay me!)
So my question is, WTF should I do?
No way I can wait that long. We are to the point that I either have to absolutely not speak to him, or run the very likely risk that things will spiral out of control very quickly (internally for me). This happens even when he's not being a total douche, my reaction is totally my own problem and I need to deal with it.
I can't go completely NC since we live together with 4 very small children, and I can't move out before Dec. 13th (no matter how much I'd like to at this point); I need to figure this out.
I'm sure I'm not the first person who can't get into their psychiatrist as soon as they need to. I don't want to switch over to a whole other practice (and honestly I'd probably run into this problem with most docs as a new patient), any chance my GP will be any help? I have a regular that knows me pretty well and was the last one to give me Lexapro 9 years ago. She also prescribed me Ritalin, but when I didn't like that particular med, admitted anything else was out of her scope and referred me to the psych. (Which I appreciate and think is the right call!)
I'm frustrated just typing this, God my anxiety is high. I don't know if I have a question any longer, lol. Maybe just some, been there done that :) Crossing fingers that she'll be ok to prescribe me some maintenance anxiety and situational anxiety medication, while I'm on ADD meds. I worry it's the ADD meds that will be the part of this medication equation that will make her uncomfortable, and I'm not sure it's a good idea for me to drop them.
I guess if I can't figure it out with my GP, I'll call back the psych's office and see what in the world they recommend...maybe they'll have me see someone else in the practice?
Please someone tell me I'm not the only one that seriously doesn't have their shit together?!?
[This message edited by WoundedOpus at 11:23 AM, October 17th (Thursday)]