WH A happened mostly at work, he kept condoms & things OW gave him there. He preferred I didn't come to his work.
Now, I'm welcome to come there. I meet him so we can go to lunch or I bring it and we eat there. I try to live in the moment and enjoy our time together.
Then it hits me and I want to go through his desk, work area & where he keeps his personal supplies. The urge is almost overwhelming. Do I look when he’s busy, with him watching me or not at all? I don’t want to spoil our time together. I want to build a bridge not burn it. I’d like to tell him how I feel, so we can work through it together. But if there is something there he’ll know to hide it someplace different before I have a chance to look.
As our time is almost over the dreaded question comes. Where are you going when you leave? I want to ask….Why do you want to know? Do you really care or is she coming by? Do you want to make sure I’ll be gone & won’t come back? What are you doing when I leave?
Is the A really over or has it gone underground? He seems to be doing/saying all the right things. Our relationship has a long way to go yet appears better than it has been in years. Then again the reason I suspected his A 20+ years ago was he was treating me “too nice.” The day I caught them together he wanted to know my plans for the entire day.
I’m fighting tears all the way home……..I almost made it there before they began to fall.
Damn I hate this! We still have three people in our marriage even if he’s no longer seeing the OW. I just can’t seem to get rid of her.