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SerJR posted 10/18/2013 16:14 PM

Sometimes itís all you can do to not feel like giving up. Iím not talking about walking away from pain or letting go of a rope thatís dragging you down. Iím talking about being so scared... so hurt... our core shaken so hard... that youíre even giving up on you. On who you are... on what you believe in. In your right to even exist in the face of the dragons that haunts us and whisper coward. On giving up hope in yourself, and letting the creeping darkness win.

Well then... come along...
Let me tell you a story.
Because I have been around the block... and I have seen a thing or two.

I have seen the most remarkable things, from the most unremarkable beginnings. I have stared into the dark abyss - I have been to the edge and beyond, and I have come back again. I have been where up is down and light meets dark. I have seen good men fall, and fallen men rise. I have seen the broken redeemed, I have seen the beaten stand, and I have seen the generosity of the damned. I have seen the weak find strength and I have seen the lost find solace. I have seen where the tiny sapling stands upon the ruins of broken hills. I have seen things more important than our fears! And I have seen how dragons fly, when the coward roars.

I have found the wisdom in the mad and I have watched love triumph against all odds. I have seen beauty through strained tears. I have heard singing in absolute silence. I have seen hope give light in absolute darkness. I have witnessed the world dissolving before me very eyes until time stood still... and I have seen the world built back and time move on. I have understood things not to be believed, and I have believed things not to be understood.

I have seen so much...
But giving up?
Iím sorry...
But I canít see that.

Because for everything I have seen, there is even more that I have not. Because with every moment of every day we are free to make a choice. And each choice breeds limitless other paths to walk. A whole future which has never happened awaits. And I have seen, that even I, donít know what we are capable of. That is an infinity of potential on an exponential scale. And that is too much of you, working in your favour, to dismiss.

So wake now, little warrior...
It is time to find your remarkable.
Wake now, little warrior...
There is work to be done.

iwillNOT posted 10/18/2013 17:26 PM

Thank you for your words, they have touched me. I long to hear the singing in this silence. I cry for even a hint of the possibility of possibility...for me to someday feel the truth of your words inside my heart, seems so foreign, so inconceivable; will there ever be anything but this grey?

I will keep going, keep turning my face towards the light, and deep within my heart I will nurture the tiny ember of hope.

Hope2B posted 10/18/2013 17:36 PM

Beautifully written, SerJR.

jjct posted 10/18/2013 21:15 PM

I have heard singing in absolute silence.

Someday, I think we'll hear again, just this song. This time, I think, we'll remember the words. When I do, I'll write them, I'd be happy to become a copyist, because against them, trying to remember them, there is only so-called poet, howling as it turns out. Not perfected, not fully descriptive, not remembering the words or the tune, just,,,trying.
Beautiful Ser!

isadora posted 10/18/2013 21:48 PM

As always Ser, inspiring.

NoTriangles posted 10/18/2013 22:13 PM

Thank you for this....

Laura28 posted 10/18/2013 22:17 PM

Awesome

Completelybroken posted 10/19/2013 00:19 AM

As always- something to think on for a few days.
Thank you SerJR

doggiediva posted 10/19/2013 00:55 AM

(((SerJR)))
Thank you for these beautiful words..Are you the author? Very thought provoking and inspiring post!

I feel that many of us have days, months, even years that find us walking in the valley of the shadows...As long as we don't lose our hope for a better existence we are free..

SerJR posted 10/19/2013 09:26 AM

doggiediva - yes, I wrote that after viewing an episode of Dr. Who. Within it, he talks about what he has seen and it got me reflecting on my own story and what I have (and haven't) seen. Not sure if you've ever watched it, but I heartily recommend the series.

Drowninginitall posted 10/19/2013 09:31 AM

Ser, thank you for this. Perfect for today.

Take2 posted 10/19/2013 09:44 AM

Great episode! Great adaptation! Thanks SerJR.

Raven96 posted 10/19/2013 11:13 AM

Awesome! Again...I wish I had known about this site when my world crashed, but I am so much stronger now because of it. I appreciate everyone here so much, and it's posts like this, SerJR, that put everything in perspective. Thank you so much for this!!

Bigger posted 10/20/2013 20:33 PM

Because with every moment of every day we are free to make a choice. And each choice breeds limitless other paths to walk.

THIS is the key. This is the path out of infidelity. This is what we old-timers tend to preach.

I truly believe that in each and every situation we have choices. These choices create change. This change creates new choices, giving us new options. OK Ė I fully acknowledge that when dealing with infidelity the choices arenít exciting. Itís no walk in the park making the decision to divorce or to work at forgiving this most treacherous of acts. But we come here to SI because we donít want to be where we are. We can change that by looking at our options and then acting on the option most likely to help us survive infidelity.


Snowy posted 10/20/2013 20:57 PM

Because with every moment of every day we are free to make a choice

I agree, this is the key. When you lose sight ogf this, this is when you have given.

As Bigger sayes, the choices may not be great,but at least there is the choice of walking away and starting a fresh.

NotCoping posted 10/20/2013 21:01 PM

Thank you!

Gr8Lady posted 10/20/2013 21:42 PM

Powererful words, expressed by someone with the grace to share hope.

Thank you

SerJR posted 11/6/2013 17:04 PM

somanyyears posted 11/7/2013 08:27 AM

..for some reason, after reading your post, I connected it to the approach of Remembrance Day and the devastation left on the battlefields of Europe.. the destruction and hopelessness and death all around as the brave men and women forged on thru the darkness of those horrific times..

..there was 'no giving up' then.. the hopes for peace and better times emerged.. and won!

..the same fears, pain and suffering after 9-11 in the hearts and minds of a world pitched into that darkness, only to rise up again into that light you speak of.. that rebuilding of hope for a new and better world.

..we all must never lose sight of that "infinity of potential" you speak of, that we all 'have work to be done' and we all 'must never give up'

..i continue to search for my own path on this unexpected journey, to find a light out of my darkness.

Posts like yours give me that hope i so desperately need; that peace of mind that so far, has elluded me.

I will not give up the search, i will not remain in this darkness forever!

I will survive.

May we all survive this battle, this war, this brutal attack of the heart.

smy

thanks SerJR.

Gumdropped posted 11/7/2013 08:37 AM

Beautiful words. I will return to read that post again and again. It was the first one I read this morning and it gave me HOPE. I remember my mother telling me many years ago that you can take everything else away from mankind and they will survive, but take away hope and most likely all is lost. I hope that you can post that wonderful post in the healing library!

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