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Marathonwaseasy posted 10/19/2013 11:45 AM

I'm in early R but really want it. Fwh is doing everything right. But I'm in agony whenever I think about him with her. Does that searing pain ever fade?

hobbeskat posted 10/19/2013 11:54 AM

Yes, it does, at least it has for me. I think I have gone over details so much, gone over the betrayal and the pain, that the impact of it is less painful as time goes on. I still sometimes have my breath taken by it- but much, much less often now.

TheAmazingWondertwin posted 10/19/2013 12:06 PM

Yes it does. Definitely.
The more we talked, the easier it got. With each talk, each rage, each breakdown, the pain got easier and easier to deal with. And the pain was always a little different- some was rage filled, some was such deep sadness, some was heart wrenching betrayal- it changed constantly.

Now it is a dull ache, an ever present piece of my mind- but now instead of being a giant mess of scattered soul and feelings in my head, it is now more organized, filed in a manner that I can access bits of it as I need to. And I do need to- its just that now I have a little better control over it.
i can just look at the box as a whole, or open it up and just take certain pieces out.
I am so sorry you are feeling this way- it is just awful- but you will be strong and the pain will get better. I promise.
Hugs and strength to you.

lostworld posted 10/19/2013 15:18 PM

For me, the pain definitely fades over time. There are just a couple of memories, out of hundreds!, that can really pierce me now, and even those are short-lived. I do still think of it regularly, but it's kind of like background noise in that it is usually below my notice, but then flashes through when I am not busy or occupied. Those flashes don't come with much if any emotion, however.

Marathonwaseasy, the soul-rending agony sometimes feels like you simply can't stand one more second of it, but I promise you that that will fade. Hang in there.

[This message edited by lostworld at 3:19 PM, October 19th (Saturday)]

doesitgetbetter posted 10/19/2013 15:24 PM

It absolutely fades! Almost 6 years on now, and I hardly ever do think of it. When I do, it's just a flash in the pan and then it's gone. And when I talk about it, like with H or counselors or whatnot, I don't even tear up anymore. It has now become a part of our history, and not this horrible thing that I am going through anymore.

(((Marathon)))

struggling3 posted 10/19/2013 15:29 PM

As everyone else has said...it does get better with time. Each month got better then each year. I'm not to the point that I don't think about it but that intense pain has all but gone away. If a drop of pain comes with a thought...it doesn't linger but moves out pretty quickly. Give it time...that along with a remorseful spouse is key.

sisoon posted 10/19/2013 18:35 PM

If you feel your feelings and let them go, yes, the pain leaves your body and your mind. The pain becomes a memory.

The most physically painful thing I've experienced is an infected root canal. I can remember that 2 shots of novocaine did nothing to reduce the hurt. I remember a whole lot about the experience, and I remember I was in excruciating pain, but I don't remember the actual pain itself....

[This message edited by sisoon at 6:36 PM, October 19th (Saturday)]

sad12008 posted 10/19/2013 20:32 PM

Both; the latter happened first for me. On really, really rare occasions now (I'm talking maybe once, for a couple hours maximum, every 6-8 months), I can get hit by strong emotions, but when that has happened it's generally been anger, not sadness-type pain.

I remember it felt like I'd NEVER get to a point where it wasn't agony...it's gradual. I do remember clearly thinking, "wow, I haven't sobbed today!" when I hit that milestone.

Now I recollect those horrible days with a bit of a detachment. Like I remember the where and when, but my memory is almost like that of an observer.

It's part of the mourning process; think of grieving for someone close to you....

Hang in there; you'll get through this. (((Marathonwaseasy)))

[This message edited by sad12008 at 8:34 PM, October 19th (Saturday)]

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