Please know that this is not meant to discount the words from those that are married. I appreciate and consider all advice and support I have received. The SI community has made things a lot more tolerable the past few days.
We are not married, nor do we live together. I feel that this causes some people to simply say, welp! move on! I feel like just because there isn't something on paper forcing us together doesn't mean I should ignore and give up on the relationship. I love this man. He loves me. Clearly we had some underlying issues, but our daily relationship was the happiest time of my life. I wanted to, and if we can move forward a bit, still want to marry this man.
The fact is, there are plenty of people on here that are in marriages, have children, live together, and have situations much more extreme and dyer than mine.
Would really love some words, advice, or related feelings from those of you that are NOT married, or NOT living together, but still trying...