Before I get into this......Facebook was what happened to us and her A...she signed up in 10/10 and yada...within 3 weeks she was in an affair with a guy she dated in college.
She dropped FB on her own and never looked back. She is and has been an absolute gem since then.....honestly.
Our first 2 years were tough, but we have moved mountains.
Last week she asked if she could once again sign up with me doing the registering...owning the email and having full access. She is missing so much with friends and family afar. I can understand that....
but.....I am not ready I think.
Last night I had a series of ugly dreams.....I have not felt the feelings I felt during and after the dream since shortly after DDay. We all know that feeling....the hopeless gut destroying feeling when you have been told that you were and have been irrelevant. That your partner of so many years has thrown you away for a piece of shit.
Thats the feeling.....its been a tough day....
I thought I was so far down the road....so far....but now? not so much.