So now it seems like the dog is dying. Pretty blunt, I know, but why sugar coat it? She is 13, way beyond the life expectancy for a boxer. She has been battling incontinency for years (thankfully just pee!) and her joints have gotten very bad, even with meds. Yesterday she fell down the stairs... Twice. Was peeing randomly all over the house, sometimes seemingly unaware she was even doing it. Her breathing was shallow and labored overnight. She was constantly walking in circles and not bending one leg.
TCD is taking her to the vet as we speak. I feel like euthanizing her is inevitable. Obviously it's not TRAGIC, but it is still SAD. How much sadness can we handle?
I know what I need to do for TCD. I know I need to be there for her. We just can't seem to catch a breather! Something, some ray of light to recharge our collective batteries before going back to battle the demons...
Ugggggggh... Sorry, this was very rambling and disjointed, but I'm typing on my phone and I am very tired... The OT clock offically ticked past 1000 hours Saturday night/Sunday morning. Coupled with everything else, I'm just flat out EXHAUSTED.
Really sorry about your dog.
"Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway." - J. Wayne
Sounds like your dog is definitely in pain and suffering. I wish you guys strength today and making a decision for what's best for your pooch. I held my dog and kissed his head while he was put down. No one else in my family could handle it but I didn't want the dog to be alone in his last moment. If you can take a few days off work to spend with the family that would help TCD and your girls.
Take care and I will be thinking of you guys
So TCD just left the vet. He gave the dog some painkillers, a steroid shot and cortisone. He said she's obviously in pain, but some of it seems neurological. So we're going to wait it out for a bit and keep an eye on her for now. No matter what, we're only buying time, staving off the inevitable.
I'm so sorry.
I hope the injections buy some quality, comfortable time for your dog.
I also hope that life lets up a little on you.
So sorry for you, your family, and your dog. Just keep hanging in there. And share your grief and fears with each other. A lot of tender learning and sharing moments came out of this tough time for us and our kids.
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Profoundly grateful Every. Single. Day. that I am blessed with an H with strength, integrity, and compassion, and that he decided to try.
Thank you all for the kind words and support. I do hope that TCD especially can have some final quality time with the dog. Apparently she did get up to go drink and eat while TCD had the kids at DD8's hockey practice, so that was encouraging.
We are both tired. Very much so. I acknowledge my role in that... It took me so long to "get it" that so much energy was simply wasted. But now life just won't let up for a second. Sorry for whining. Just feeling down right now. Thanks again, everyone.