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A guy I dated last year was in town and asked me out for a drink on Saturday night. I had really fallen for this guy a year ago, he swept me off my feet and I was crushed when he ended it suddenly and without an explanation a month after we started seeing each other--just stopped returning my calls and my texts. A month or so after he stopped calling, he did get in contact with me and told me why. His reasoning was basically "I was less into you than you were into me." That was the first time I had heard that explanation in this dating experience and as it turns out it wasn't to be the last.

I've learned a lot about myself since then and I'm not the same person in the early stages of relationships now. I hold back more in relationships with men, I'm not as trusting, I'm more cautious, I'm more watchful. And some of those behaviors are beneficial and some are probably not. But it is what I've learned. I don't trust the "fall deeply fast" kind of things like I did...because those are the ones that have bit me in the ass...

Anyway, We have a drink on Saturday night. He flirts. He reminisces. He tests my interest in rekindling a dating relationship. But as I'm talking to him more candidly than I could last year, I realize he did me a favor by ending it. I don't like the way he did that, but I'm glad he did. It was good to be able to say "You hurt me" and for him to acknowledge that. And, although the offer of physical contact and a sexual relationship would be nice, I truly want it "all" in a relationship and won't settle for less anymore. And he isn't "all" that I'm looking for.

One telling thing, in the Saturday night conversation I said I wanted someone who felt very lucky to be in a relationship with me, and I wanted to feel the same way about the guy. This guy said "Why would you feel that way about me?" and he meant that he didn't see himself as a great "catch". We are in different places financially--he is kind of reckless with his money, he has a rocky relationship with both of his kids, he seems to attract women with drama. He has a lot of bravado otherwise, and looks like he is confident about himself, but in that moment I got to see what he really thinks of himself--And it reminded me of my ex in that moment. And how I continually tried to build him up because he didn't really like himself. And how exhausting that was, and how his low opinion of himself probably contributed so very much to the A

So, 15 months ago this guy broke my heart and now I'm grateful. That's a good lesson to remember.

A guy I dated last year was in town and asked me out for a drink on Saturday night.  I had really fallen for this guy a year ago, he swept me off my feet and I was crushed when he ended it suddenly and without an explanation a month after we started seeing each other--just stopped returning my calls and my texts. A month or so after he stopped calling, he did get in contact with me and told me why.  His reasoning was basically "I was less into you than you were into me."  That was the first time I had heard that explanation in this dating experience and as it turns out it wasn't to be the last.

I've learned a lot about myself since then and I'm not the same person in the early stages of relationships now.  I hold back more in relationships with men, I'm not as trusting, I'm more cautious, I'm more watchful. And some of those behaviors are beneficial and some are probably not.  But it is what I've learned. I don't trust the "fall deeply fast" kind of things like I did...because those are the ones that have bit me in the ass...

Anyway, We have a drink on Saturday night.  He flirts.  He reminisces.  He tests my interest in rekindling a dating relationship.  But as I'm talking to him more candidly than I could last year, I realize he did me a favor by ending it.  I don't like the way he did that, but I'm glad he did.  It was good to be able to say "You hurt me" and for him to acknowledge that.  And, although the offer  of physical contact and a sexual relationship would be nice, I truly want it "all" in a relationship and won't settle for less anymore. And he isn't "all" that I'm looking for.

One telling thing, in the Saturday night conversation I said I wanted someone who felt very lucky to be in a relationship with me, and I wanted to feel the same way about the guy.  This guy said "Why would you feel that way about me?" and he meant that he didn't see himself as a great "catch". We are in different places financially--he is kind of reckless with his money, he has a rocky relationship with both of his kids, he seems to attract women with drama. He has a lot of bravado otherwise, and looks like he is confident about himself, but in that moment I got to see what he really thinks of himself--And it reminded me of my ex in that moment.  And how I continually tried to build him up because he didn't really like himself.  And how exhausting that was, and how his low opinion of himself probably contributed so very much to the A

So, 15 months ago this guy broke my heart and now I'm grateful.  That's a good lesson to remember.

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