I'm about 8 weeks after d-day, my WH has given up, he tells me on a daily basis "you will never forgive me or trust me again." Yes that is how I feel right now, all of it is over- whelming. His "issues" is what got us here in the first place and I'm wondering why I'm bothering to try. All I've gotten from day 1 is TT and ALL truths have come from OW's WH. Even when confronted with truth, he continues to lie saying he's embarrassed he acted in this way, etc.
We were doing so much better at the beginning of this, there were times when I couldn't keep my hands off of him, we made passionate love and I felt like we connected in a way we NEVER have until now. His guard was down, for a very short period of time. Is it normal to become more and more de-tached as this sinks in? Or is his attitude contributing to the derailment of this relationship? There are so many hurtful things that he did during his A, beyond cruel and things he continues to say now like "the number 1 reason we didn't run off together is I don't want to be with a flight attendant." He still defends that, but says of course it's because I love you, I want you, I love my wife. He's lied to me SO many times, it's hard to believe anything. Am I fool to even try with this man? He also told me the night I found out about the A (not anywhere close to what really happened) he said "I love her and I always will." He defends this position by saying everybody still loves their first loves, etc. Please read my profile and help me.
If I need a swift kick to my butt, please do it. Please help me, I'm scared and feel as if I'm losing touch with reality.
[This message edited by cluless at 9:30 PM, October 21st (Monday)]
BS 55 -- Me!
LTA EA/PA 1-1/2 years.
D-Day 8-12, 2nd D-Day 9-13, 3rd D-Day 10-13 (stopped counting tt still coming in)
Married 17 yrs, together 20.
MC & IC has been a JOKE.
Status: We're going to try IC one more time.