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User Topic: Give me strength...
befuzzled110
♀ 35787
Member # 35787
Default  Posted: 7:28 PM, October 22nd (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I have what I need to take the next step. He's talking to people from Craigslist again. I grabbed a number from the online account and it's not from anyone we "should" know. It's no one he works with. So...Please send prayers and strength this way. I am going to try and hold out until tomorrow when the kids go to school...but I don't know if I can make it that long. I am shaking, my hands are cold, and my heart is beating a mile a minute, not to mention the urge to throw up. And the wanting to cry my eyes out. What a selfish ass.


Me: 37 and awesome
Him: 42 and not so awesome
OW1: 47 and desperate OW2: 34, freshly divorced, was once my friend OW3: is OW1 who took in WH during seperation.

Posts: 201 | Registered: Jun 2012 | From: Michigan
LosferWords
♂ 30369
Member # 30369
Default  Posted: 7:31 PM, October 22nd (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((befuzzled110)))

I'm so sorry...

Sending you strength and prayers. We're here for you.


Posts: 8009 | Registered: Dec 2010
SurelyNOT
♀ 40617
Member # 40617
Default  Posted: 7:36 PM, October 22nd (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Hope you can find the strength to get through this. Sorry I don't have the answers, if only I had a magic wand!!! This is such a struggle, all encompassing and painful.
(((Hugs))) prayers and best wishes to you on your journey.

Posts: 95 | Registered: Sep 2013
5454real
♂ 37455
Member # 37455
Default  Posted: 7:40 PM, October 22nd (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

sending not only strength, but mojo and prayers.

I'm sorry you're having to deal with this.


BH 51, WW 42
DS 23(Mine),SD 21,SS 20(Hers),DS 9 Ours, DGS 3, DGD 1 mo
D=Day #1 5/04EA (Rugswept)
D-Day #2 3/10/12, TT til 3/13/12
Married 10yrs
I have no love for a friend who loves in words alone.
― Sophocles, Antigone

Posts: 3172 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: midwest
Truly
♀ 40715
Member # 40715
Default  Posted: 7:40 PM, October 22nd (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage


Oh crap.

So sorry. Keep holding on. You're doing brilliantly.
Look up at the ceiling and blink rapidly (helps halt the tears).

Good luck ((((befuzzled))))


There are dark shadows on the earth, but its lights are stronger in the contrast.
Charles Dickens


Posts: 257 | Registered: Sep 2013
befuzzled110
♀ 35787
Member # 35787
Default  Posted: 7:58 PM, October 22nd (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Never mind..Well, not never mind...Just couldn't wait until tomorrow. The thought of him thinking he was getting lucky tonight and the acid turning in my stomach is too much. I just confronted. He didn't deny shit. Just looks miserable. I am so flipping angry right now...


Me: 37 and awesome
Him: 42 and not so awesome
OW1: 47 and desperate OW2: 34, freshly divorced, was once my friend OW3: is OW1 who took in WH during seperation.

Posts: 201 | Registered: Jun 2012 | From: Michigan
nowiknow23
♀ 33226
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Default  Posted: 8:17 PM, October 22nd (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((((befuzzled)))) Sending you strength and comfort, honey.


You can call me NIK

"Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you."
-Walt Whitman


Posts: 26197 | Registered: Aug 2011
Truly
♀ 40715
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Default  Posted: 8:20 PM, October 22nd (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I bet you're angry right now. I can hear tacks hitting the walls from here!

And now he looks miserable? Poor little diddums. Choices. Choices and boundaries. Bloomin' idiot!
He didn't get lucky enough to realise the gift you offered him was priceless

Stay strong, befuzzled

And yes, you are allowed to be angry!!!!


There are dark shadows on the earth, but its lights are stronger in the contrast.
Charles Dickens


Posts: 257 | Registered: Sep 2013
throughthetunnel
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Default  Posted: 9:57 PM, October 22nd (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I am so sorry. Prayers!

Posts: 7 | Registered: Oct 2013
surviving1963
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Default  Posted: 10:06 PM, October 22nd (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

On your terms from now on. Sending strength your way!


Me: 50
WH: 50 pro cake-eater, NPD, SA
Married 33 years
D-Days 3-4-12, 8-19-12 (EA, probably PA)porn,ashleymadison, etc, etc
4 sons, 3 daughters
8 grandkids
Divorcing - finally

Posts: 120 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: Utah
befuzzled110
♀ 35787
Member # 35787
Default  Posted: 6:27 AM, October 23rd (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Well, let's see.. I threw the book "How to Help your spouse heal from your affair" at him. No- he has never read it, as he was never approachable to give it to. He picked it up and read chapter one right away. I handed him my ring and said I don't want to wear it. I told him that he will hand over his phone every day. He will give me back the computer. I told him I am done. I am ready to walk and he freaked out- not to stop me, but started to realize (maybe) that he has F-U-B-A-R-ed(fu**ed up beyond any repair), big time. I am at my wits end. At the same time, I just want to crawl under the sheets and hide. I am so exhausted emotionally. Can anyone hear me screaming from where they are??? Lol...


Me: 37 and awesome
Him: 42 and not so awesome
OW1: 47 and desperate OW2: 34, freshly divorced, was once my friend OW3: is OW1 who took in WH during seperation.

Posts: 201 | Registered: Jun 2012 | From: Michigan
devasted30
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Member # 39439
Default  Posted: 6:57 AM, October 23rd (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Okay (gently, very gently) maybe it's time to put your bitch boots on and start walking.
I am so sorry you are back to the beginning again.
Many hugs to you and hoping you find the strength to get thru this.


And remember Murphy is right. Nothing is so bad that it can't get worse!!!

Posts: 1382 | Registered: Jun 2013 | From: Ontario, Canada
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