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befuzzled110 posted 10/22/2013 19:28 PM

I have what I need to take the next step. He's talking to people from Craigslist again. I grabbed a number from the online account and it's not from anyone we "should" know. It's no one he works with. So...Please send prayers and strength this way. I am going to try and hold out until tomorrow when the kids go to school...but I don't know if I can make it that long. I am shaking, my hands are cold, and my heart is beating a mile a minute, not to mention the urge to throw up. And the wanting to cry my eyes out. What a selfish ass.

LosferWords posted 10/22/2013 19:31 PM

(((befuzzled110)))

I'm so sorry...

Sending you strength and prayers. We're here for you.

SurelyNOT posted 10/22/2013 19:36 PM

Hope you can find the strength to get through this. Sorry I don't have the answers, if only I had a magic wand!!! This is such a struggle, all encompassing and painful.
(((Hugs))) prayers and best wishes to you on your journey.

5454real posted 10/22/2013 19:40 PM

sending not only strength, but mojo and prayers.

I'm sorry you're having to deal with this.

Truly posted 10/22/2013 19:40 PM

Oh crap.

So sorry. Keep holding on. You're doing brilliantly.
Look up at the ceiling and blink rapidly (helps halt the tears).

Good luck ((((befuzzled))))

befuzzled110 posted 10/22/2013 19:58 PM

Never mind..Well, not never mind...Just couldn't wait until tomorrow. The thought of him thinking he was getting lucky tonight and the acid turning in my stomach is too much. I just confronted. He didn't deny shit. Just looks miserable. I am so flipping angry right now...

nowiknow23 posted 10/22/2013 20:17 PM

((((befuzzled)))) Sending you strength and comfort, honey.

Truly posted 10/22/2013 20:20 PM

I bet you're angry right now. I can hear tacks hitting the walls from here!

And now he looks miserable? Poor little diddums. Choices. Choices and boundaries. Bloomin' idiot!
He didn't get lucky enough to realise the gift you offered him was priceless

Stay strong, befuzzled

And yes, you are allowed to be angry!!!!

throughthetunnel posted 10/22/2013 21:57 PM

I am so sorry. Prayers!

surviving1963 posted 10/22/2013 22:06 PM

On your terms from now on. Sending strength your way!

befuzzled110 posted 10/23/2013 06:27 AM

Well, let's see.. I threw the book "How to Help your spouse heal from your affair" at him. No- he has never read it, as he was never approachable to give it to. He picked it up and read chapter one right away. I handed him my ring and said I don't want to wear it. I told him that he will hand over his phone every day. He will give me back the computer. I told him I am done. I am ready to walk and he freaked out- not to stop me, but started to realize (maybe) that he has F-U-B-A-R-ed(fu**ed up beyond any repair), big time. I am at my wits end. At the same time, I just want to crawl under the sheets and hide. I am so exhausted emotionally. Can anyone hear me screaming from where they are??? Lol...

devasted30 posted 10/23/2013 06:57 AM

Okay (gently, very gently) maybe it's time to put your bitch boots on and start walking.
I am so sorry you are back to the beginning again.
Many hugs to you and hoping you find the strength to get thru this.