I'm terrified that the deep, paralyzing sadness I felt before I started taking them will return.
That's a very real fear, and it's good that you're acknowledging it. If that were to happen, would you consider going back on, if you need to?
I am off anti-depressants right now; I had to go off them when I was expecting my son, and I'm still nursing, so not back on them yet. It was and still is at times very rough. In the beginning was the worst because I was on Effexor - Effexor is fast-acting, so the withdrawal symptoms, combined with morning sickness, were brutal.
What helped was this: I was taking DBT at the same time, for another disorder. DBT had some really good skills about mood regulation, among other things. It helped, when my depression got bad, to remember and practice the skills.
Right now I am trying to relearn those skills. It's very hard. I'm still in IC, even though I can no longer take DBT.
Would you be remaining in IC after you go off the antidepressants? I ask because it can help to keep having extra support.
Take care. This stuff can be rough, and it sounds like you're being cautious.
[This message edited by silverhopes at 6:46 PM, October 24th (Thursday)]