WH's MO has ALWAYS been to look like a "good guy". I had to tell my family every gory detail (just the one's I had, apparently) in order for them to EVEN BELIEVE ME! He was/IS just that good of a liar.
I am so stupid to not just keep the NC, but he SEEMED like he was being supportive & I have been in a deep, black depression. Thought I could rely on him, but then he talks about his displeasure with his apartment with the kids because "I" don't make enough money while being "supportive" of finances to my face.
That dynamic is sadly, painfully familiar.
Then he says he's going to China in the next 2 weeks & it triggered a memory for me about a trip he was supposed to take to Korea when he had his affair & OW1 was supposed to go. He always lied about that fact, but I confronted him about it an hour ago after he dropped off the kids & admitted that she & him were supposed to go. I believe this was AFTER it was all supposed to be over and we were in marriage counseling.
Anyway, this LTA (15 years) fucks with my head so badly & the depth & details are so much, so traumatic, and so painful...I forget that I'm supposed to be NC for my sanity sometimes.
I also think R is IMPOSSIBLE with an LTA WS-the info never ends. Just my ranty opinion.
So back to NC. Normally I'd be happy he has the opportunity to go to China.
I guess I'm fucked up for even being happy for him.
This is just FUBAR.