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Will I be this exhausted for the rest of my life- give me hope!

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 jemimapd (original poster member #37895) posted at 3:14 PM on Friday, October 25th, 2013

I am doing an house separation. Final hearing is end November and the in house is agreed. I can't change that.

I am absolutely wiped out. I have zero energy. I am normally very energetic but right now I am doing the minimumn. I can't believe how bad this exhaustion is.

Is this normal and how quickly will it get better?

Jemima Puddleduck is a trusting soul....
DD 1 Dec 2012; Divorced 11/13; 2 children
Me: BS (47) Him: WH (52) Her: 3 PA's
Ex bought a house, The Money Pit With Mold That Will Never Be Finished. He's living in the basement.

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7yrsflushed ( member #32258) posted at 3:25 PM on Friday, October 25th, 2013

I did in-house S leading up to official S when paperwork was filed and it was brutal. Is your IN-House ending in November? If so start marking your calendar off day by day. Focus on the end goal. For me it got better once STBX actually moved out. I still had ups and downs but it kept getting better once she was gone. In-house S sucks the life out of you, for me it really was a prison sentence and I was counting down the days. I tried to be gone as much as I could. I went to the gym as much as I could and went out with family on the weekends. I took the kids on trips when I could without STBXW and tried to start living my life like she didn't exist. It helped some but I always ended up having to come back to that house with her still in it. So for me anyway it really didn't get better until in-house was over. One day at a time until I was free.

[This message edited by 7yrsflushed at 9:26 AM, October 25th (Friday)]

D-day 5/24/11
BH = Me
2 children
The first true sense of calm I felt in YEARS was when I filed for D...
Divorced 9/2/14 and loving life!

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RyeBread ( member #37437) posted at 3:48 PM on Friday, October 25th, 2013

I just wanted you to know you are not alone. I am doing in house S also and it is one of the most soul emptying experiences I have ever had.

[This message edited by RyeBread at 9:49 AM, October 25th (Friday)]

Let him that would move the world first move himself. - Socrates

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 jemimapd (original poster member #37895) posted at 3:57 PM on Friday, October 25th, 2013

You are right. It does suck the life out of you. It is soul-destroying. We are very civil but my WH just doesn't get it. Today he wanted a hug. I have made it clear that is completely inappropriate but he still asks from time to time.

What part of we are getting a divorce because of his serial infidelity is so difficult to grasp?

I think deep down he thinks that I will have a change of heart before the hearing. Hell will freeze over.....

I feel suspended and powerless. And too exhausted to do anything anyway. He is in the process of buying a house so we don't have a definite move out date.

Jemima Puddleduck is a trusting soul....
DD 1 Dec 2012; Divorced 11/13; 2 children
Me: BS (47) Him: WH (52) Her: 3 PA's
Ex bought a house, The Money Pit With Mold That Will Never Be Finished. He's living in the basement.

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RyeBread ( member #37437) posted at 4:03 PM on Friday, October 25th, 2013

I think deep down he thinks that I will have a change of heart before the hearing.

I get the same sense from my STBXWW, like if she waits long enough I will change my mind. She isn't doing anything to make the changes she is going to need when the D happens. Its frustrating. Not to mention the eggshells you have to walk on every single day.

Let him that would move the world first move himself. - Socrates

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7yrsflushed ( member #32258) posted at 4:25 PM on Friday, October 25th, 2013

He is in the process of buying a house so we don't have a definite move out date.

My STBX was in the process of building a house. The ready date kept getting pushed out for different reasons. I ultimately had to give her a GTFO date. She moved in with her family and it took an additional 3 months for them to finish her house. I needed a date for her to be gone and had to push to get it.

If you can push for a date no matter what that he is out go for it. Once all the paperwork was signed I pushed for her to be out as soon as possible.

D-day 5/24/11
BH = Me
2 children
The first true sense of calm I felt in YEARS was when I filed for D...
Divorced 9/2/14 and loving life!

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 jemimapd (original poster member #37895) posted at 9:59 PM on Friday, October 25th, 2013

Yes, it has definitely brought out to me my WH's complete denial about the state of our marriage. Honestly, I don't know how I managed to try to reconcile for so long.

He really doesn't get it. I think he would be very happy continuing to live together for the rest of our lives.

He was nicely set up with his wife and his girlfriends. This was why he constantly bleated during what passed for reconcilation that, "I never woud have left you." Of course not, he had me running his business and his girlfriends for fun.

Jemima Puddleduck is a trusting soul....
DD 1 Dec 2012; Divorced 11/13; 2 children
Me: BS (47) Him: WH (52) Her: 3 PA's
Ex bought a house, The Money Pit With Mold That Will Never Be Finished. He's living in the basement.

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Gemini71 ( member #40115) posted at 10:54 PM on Friday, October 25th, 2013

Exhaustion is a symptom of depression. Talk to your doctor. He can test for physical reasons for lack of energy or help you get treatment for depression if that is the cause.

DSs 21, 16, 12
About my Ex:
IDK
IDC
IDGAF

Double Betrayal D-Day 7/26/2013
Divorced 11/18/2014

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Spelljean ( member #35624) posted at 12:38 AM on Saturday, October 26th, 2013

Can't imagine. I lived with WH for two months after dday, until he moved out. I think he was wavering and OW finally applied so much pressure he finally left.

I don't know how I'd survive a longer in-house separation.

WH: 41
me: BS, 45
Together 18 1/2 years, married 17
DDAY 8/2/12
OW: EA- friend of 4 months
Status: separated

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Thefly559 ( member #40268) posted at 12:50 PM on Saturday, October 26th, 2013

I can surely understand and identify with your pain. I am not in in house separation but I did live there for the month or two prior to discovery. After she told me she wanted a divorce but not why! I can tell you I was dying , I was tore up from the inside! It was torture . The pain was unbearable! She would stay out all night, not come home, she would leave things out for me to find, she locked the bedroom door and wouldn't let me in!! So much more. Having her so close physically and so far emotionally was killer! I know your pain . You are stronger than me , that is good . I am not sure why you stay , or do not have him removed but that is your choice. I wish you all the best! Good luck

"respect? you don't deserve it, you won't get any from me unless you earn it"

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