Iím beginning to think the A didnít completely destroy our M, but my reaction to it will, if something doesnít change soon. This is not something WH is putting on me, but something Iím putting on myself.
He understands it will take time & tells me that. He answers all my questions, lets me look at things, has given me passwords, encourages me to talk to him instead of making a mountain out of a mole hill (which I frequently do), listens while I ventÖetc.
Our M is not where it should be, but itís better than it has been in years. I wonder if a temporary separation would help or hurt our situation. How are we supposed to work on our M if we are apart? How can I find some peace if we are together? I feel like I need a break from it all.
[This message edited by devasted30 at 5:55 PM, October 27th (Sunday)]
We do much better and make more strides towards R when we are living together and seeing each other regularly.
I am in the same state you are and it feels terrible, like it will never end. I am hoping IC and MC will help me with it. I think that's more of an answer to it than separation is.
Sorry I have nothing else to offer--we are in the same boat!
I don't think a separation will help. You need to communicate and work on your M together, and if you're not together I think it will add another layer of difficulty. If you feel you need a break, can you go somewhere for a couple of days to regroup? Can you do an "in-house" separation for a little bit? You would be under the same roof but would have your own territories.
Please remember not to be too hard on yourself. This takes 2-5 YEARS to recover. I think things get easier as time goes on. I know I for one wish that I could just jump to the other side, but unfortunately we have to go through this. Remember to be good to yourself!!
Its also hard when one person desires more communication than the other.
My husband is an introvert and I think he really needed it to think. I am an extrovert so i have been resentful not to have the contact that I want to have while working on this. I have however, gotten used to being alone a lot and its not as scary as I thought it would be. So if things don't work out, I am not scared to death to be a solo gal.
If you are in no way considering divorce, it could pull the two of you apart more than you want. But if you are wondering if that would be best as far as staying together or not, you would get perspective.