Halloween was my favorite holiday. I love horror, sci-fi, and apocalyptic movies & books.
Halloween 2011 I dressed as Mother Earth, WH was an angel, all in white, complete with huge white wings.
The Saturday before Halloween he met the OW, they corresponded via phone, text, email for a whole week until they met at her house the following Saturday for sex.
This continued until the day after Thanksgiving. I found out he cheated (with somebody else) on Dec. 11.
He finally admitted to OW2 on Oct. 11, 2012. Tonight I despise him.
I made a big effort to "take back" Halloween, then find myself lost. Unable to function. I have Halloween stuff scattered all over the house for a party I'm helping decorate, I've lost my purse again, or perhaps it was stolen.
My house and yard are disorganized, cluttered, and neglected. Just like my mind and our marriage.
Sometimes I can hardly stand to be around him and his voice makes me want to run away. We are each seeing our own psychiatrist. He is so damaged MC was a total waste of time and money.
He's a sex addict. The first affair partner was a man. They did their stuff for 7 years until I busted them. Both our psychs say there is great hope, he's motivated etc . I don't really feel it. Sometimes a little. Rarely a lot. I do love him.
Just needed to vent, I guess. I moved back into the guest room about 3 weeks ago. I wonder about divorcing him.
I committed to another year because he is so messed up. He's in a special experimental cognitive behavior program.
I considered dressing up like OW and when people asked, I would say I'm a skank. But I won't. This is so hard and I'm so sad.
Dear Lord, please help me through the next few months.