Monday. Alarm goes off at 4:00 am. Work starts at 6:00. I stumble to the shower, everyone else in the house still curled up in dark rooms, asleep. At least I get a warm shower that early, before the water heater caves under the onslaught of a full house.
Crap. Did I haze out in the shower? What time is it, I wonder, toweling my wet hair as I step from the bathroom to the bedroom. Husband's nightstand right in front of me, his phone glowing, clock up. I lean over to peer at the numbers.
"I'm sorry, babe."
Not numbers. Oh, a text is up. Huh? Babe? I don't remember that text. Wait... its to David?
I can't get the information to link in my head. Babe? David? For one horrible second, the information makes perfect sense: ... Husband's gay? Is this why he turns me down all the time for sex? He has a boyfriend?
I'm trying to process that idea and pick up the phone to look at it more closely.
Bam! A hand circles my wrist suddenly. Husband bolts upright in bed, reaching for the phone with his other hand. "What are you doing?"
He's glaring at me. I'm frozen. My mouth won't move. I stutter, "I was checking the clock... why are you calling David 'babe'?"
Husband's scowl becomes more furious. "I don't appreciate you checking through my phone." He snatches the phone roughly, hurting my hand. With angry movements, he starts deleting things on his phone. "I sent it to the wrong number."
"I wasn't checking..." I manage before I make myself take a deep breath to thaw out. Suddenly, panic makes me quick. I reach for the phone, thinking fast. "Are you getting weird phone calls, too? Let me see if you're getting calls from the same number I am." And I snatch back the phone. I have to have that phone.
Once its in my hand, I can't think and stare blankly at the call log. Husband is holding out his hand for the phone. Without plan, I blurt, "Is David your boyfriend? Has all of this been a lie to cover up you preferring men? Is that why you don't want me?"
Husband blinks. Looks angry and amused. "No."
"I don't understand. You called him 'babe.'" I can't find my balance. It feels like a gravity well has opened just under the floor and everything is heavy.
With a frustrated sigh, husband says, "It says 'David' as a contact, but it's really 'Meghan.' I knew you'd freak out about me talking to her so I had to change her name."
The room is definitely spinning now. Definitely a gravity well. I can't breathe. "Meghan? Your old girlfriend? But you said 'babe'..."
Later that night, after a day of bizarre excuses from husband, I found out about his colleague "Frank" being really "Francesca" as Frank began texting during the first major session of TT and asked why the hell husband was with "ex-wife" talking rather than live-in girlfriend "Dana" when husband answered he was with me and it wasn't a good time.
It was all like some twisted scene staged by Guillermo del Toro.
But then, the closet creaked open... and a hook handed man burst into the room!
Just kidding about that last part. Wish I was about the rest, or the fact that we had another D-Day almost exactly a year later. Happy Halloween, everyone. Here's hoping no one gets any truly terrifying shocks today.
[This message edited by Reality at 2:39 PM, October 31st (Thursday)]