This weighs heavy on my heart.
I feel like I failed my child. As the adult and parent I waited over 10 years to have my child and our family was gone without MC or any indication.
I feel like I couldn't find a way to fix this. I not my ex couldn't figure out how to stop the OW.
I don't care about him or her just that because of my lack of ability or too confident in our family I missed the OW and when I found out didn't have the foundation to stop her.
I couldn't give him what I had a secure family. It is sooo hard deep in my core.
I don't know actual divorce families in a close sense. I don't know how they don't miss a mother and father if given the opportunity.
I guess I feel responsible in the sense death is inevitable but this is reversible in theory. I just want to .
I just want to add I have read and know of well adjusted and happy children of divorce - this is more about a burden I feel.
[This message edited by fireproof at 12:01 AM, November 2nd (Saturday)]