It's been 3.5 months since dday and it's been he longest 3.5 months of my life. The feeling of heaviness in my chest has been gone for weeks now. I still can't fathom the thought of him falling in love with OP within 2 weeks of their affair. The OP is overseas and they still talk regularly. My husband is already set that he wants a divorce. He is going back to deployment this January to the same place where the OP is. Meanwhile, my world is in shambles and trying hard to keep my head up to take care of myself and my 2yr old son.
Looking back at our conversations after the dday, he told me that I deserved more from him, I don't deserve all these, that I'm a good woman, a good mom, that I didn't do anything wrong, that I am too good and that I deserve someone better, that he made a mistake and that he's not sure how to make things work between us so he'd rather start over on his own, that he does not want to keep hurting me, and that no one could ever replace me.
Maybe he was just being noble in some of the things he said and maybe some are sincere. Right now he is head over heels inlove with the OP, they got tattoos of each other's names, professes their love for each other on FB, etc.
On the other hand, I am trying (hard) to move on with my life. It's very hard but it amazes me how I am able to hold myself up and function at work and at the same time take care of my son and my 2 dogs.
My question is, will he ever realize everything that he said? The repercussions of his actions? Or has he realized it and has moved on?
Married for 5 yrs (dated for 2yrs)