"We're not broken, just bent. We can learn to love again."
As for talking to someone else about what happened, I have to remind myself that "it may be embarrassing, but not as much as I felt when I found out about the A." That's helped me, at least.
If you go and you decide you don't like the C, you can get another. I really think it helps to have a 3rd party involved, listening and presenting things that you may not think about when it is just the two of you -- or giving you a different way to think about things.
I hope you decide to go and you find a good C on the first try!!
The MC we went to was a waste, also, because Perv got there first and filled her head with lies about me, but I didn't know this, so wasted 8 months of expensive sessions, including time and gas money. Just things to watch out for if you can.
I hope it works for you.
A person is a person, no matter how small. -Dr. Suess
Perserverance and spirit have done wonders in all ages.