So I've been so totally occupied with MDD's health, that affair stuff has kinda taken a back seat. We have been in and out of the hospital all week. I conquered one big trigger, being at said hospital overnight whilst WH was at home. The last two times this happened he had OW in my bed having sex. So when I gave birth to YDD, he had her in my bed while I was in the hospital.
Today is YDD 1st birthday. Huge trigger. Now that things are quiet, and I'm not occupied it's setting in and I want to cry. I suppose it doesn't help that I was up most of the night tending to MDD's medical needs. I had bad dreams all night about the affair.
WH has been reassuring. And so far , the trigger hasn't full on hit like I thought it was. But still, it sucks
Why does the birth of my baby have to be intermingled with an affair?
I hope it passes. Though thankfully , because of circumstances at least we are having a quiet birthday for her, which is what I wanted.