I eat but mostly "graze". i am not hungry but I eat to stay alive.
when will this stop?
It will get better Susan, honestly. But it's a rollercoaster in the process. ((HUGS))
Above all, be the heroine, not the victim. - Nora Ephron
It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
- J. K. Rowling
Try to eat or maybe start making smoothies to get proper nutrition. It is so important.
I'm embarrassed to say after my first dday my BMI ultimately dropped to under 14. I thought he cheated because I wasn't thin enough (it was 18-19 before).
Please focus on your physical health. It takes a lot of energy to work through and heal from infidelity. Your brain is a muscle and needs fuel to properly process everything that is going on. When our bodies don't have enough fuel, they use muscle to survive.
I can remember my thoughts spiraling more and more out of control as my BMI dropped. Now I have an irreversible heart condition as a result of being under nourished for over a year.
Please take care of yourself and put your health first. Don't let his actions cause more damage.
Sending you hugs and light.
I was overweight at DDay and lost a ton of weight afterwards. I decided to go to the gym and work out to relieve some stress. It helped with the weightloss and gave me an outlet to burn off excess energy and anxiety. It also helped get my appetite back because even though I didn't really want food I had to eat after working out.
Don't rule out going to your DR as well. Tell him/her what's going on.
If you can, stock your freezer with organic berries. My favourite are blueberries and blackberries, but just load that thing with frozen fruit of all kinds that appeal to you.
There's a great brown rice protein that has no additives and keeps well in the fridge.
Udo's oil is a blend of omega 3, add some ground flax seed, and you can get some liquid calcium.
That's my favourite shake. Mostly organic, full of vitamins and good fats for your brain function, and very tasty when blended with citrus or whole apple juice.
I could live on those and raw nuts to snack on. And dark chocolate chips in the trail mix.
I hope you can give it a go.
It's been six months, and you're going to do permanent damage to your health if you continue. Read Rainbow's story.
Please get professional help. Posting here is okay, but you need the help of professionals.
Please make sure you are taking prenatal vitamins, (yes prenatal because they have a titch more of the things that you really need)that you get your flu vaccine, and that you talk to your Dr. Pre Dday when I couldn't quite figure out what the hell was going on, just that H was a miserable jerk, I lost a fair amount of weight, and I needed to, then post Dday I really got bad, and dropped a bunch more. I found that anti anxiety meds helped me to be able to eat.
Protein shakes, and you don't have to get the icky ones from the store, just get some frozen berries, and greek yogurt, run em through the blender, and voila, you have protein, and sugars.
Eat every 3-4 hours during the day, and at night if you are not sleeping. You need to give your body fuel. It doesn't have to be a ton, but something with some protein, cheese and yogurt saved me.
I've been eating organic protein bars (Raw Food Bar) once or twice a day. They have lots of "good fat" in them. Eating lots of nuts. Taking Juice Plus supplements.
I do eat but obviously not enough. I ate a sandwich last night and felt sick afterward because, I think, it was just too much food at one time.
I think the issue is a combination of nerves and living alone. I used to cook dinner every night when I lived with my husband but I don't really want to prepare meals for one person.
I like the trail mix idea. Gonna try that. Just tote it around with me all day and nibble.
And, I'll look for the Udi's Oil.
I've lost 40 lbs since August 2010. It really started coming off after DDay 2, and then I have gotten dangerously thin since DDay 3 when we separated.
The good news is my skin is catching up with my smaller size. I don't look like I'm swimming in a bag of skin anymore.
The chocolate is pretty good, even with water although some kind of milk is better. No crap, organic, vegan, non gmo.
Vanilla was weird in water, ok in almond milk but not my cuppa. They also have plain so you can flavor it any way you like.
I think everyone has said all the good stuff but I wanted to help when you mentioned being told boost and ensure. Pure gmo refined sugar and garbage in a can.