This month will make us one year since Dday and I am triggering hard. Looking back at the past year I really am surprised that I made it to this point without losing my job or worse. The first months post finding out were the worst of my life. Yet I survived and we are still working on the relationship. Still not sure if we have a future but I'm taking it one day at a time. I am soooo glad I found this out before we were married. yuck!
Anyway. I told my WF that I have been feeling down. He of course apologized and expressed his deep sorrow for causing this hurt but it felt forced. Like he was really just exasperated. I on the other hand am baffled and saddened that he isn't more sensitive about the approaching date. I feel like he should be "triggering" as well. Yet he moves on. Seems like Proof that no matter how much he is hurting the hurt just isn't the same for him.
No purpose to this post. Just venting
