It's been nearly 6 months since D day and it has been the toughest 6 months of my life. Here's my story briefly...
I found out my boyfriend of 10 years was cheating when I was 8 months pregnant on our 3rd child. He was serving overseas with the army and met a female solider from a different European country. She knew nothing about us. They had an affair for 3 months .. Then he returned home.
As soon as I discovered it.. He left and called her and told her everything and she still wanted to be with him even though I was about to give birth. They are still with each other and he speaks to her daily online and has visited her about 4 times. He treats me like absolute crap as if I'm the one that did this to the family and he has been saying from day one that I just need to get over it. He is now cutting the money he gives Me for the kids so he can afford to fly over to her.
We have court next week to sort the money out.
Anyway I know for a fact that I will never ever go near him again but I just really want him to see the hurt and pain he has caused to me and the kids.. But he doesn't seem to be pulling his head out of his arse anytime soon. It's driving me mad and I need to let go but just can't.
He has hurt me so much and I know in a few years I will look back as realise he has done me a favour but I just can't get there right now.
I've my hands full with 3 young kids and exams and not sure whether I can return to work or not.
I need to just let go.. But I can't help looking at their Facebook or whatsapp to see if they are online. And it's not healthy.
Please.. When does it get easier.. How can I just let go and move on. He isn't bothered about the kids anymore and this is driving me nuts aswell. I feel like I'm in this in my own and no one else is aware of what damage he has caused. The money he is giving will just about cover nappies baby milk. But he can't see that just that he needs to get over to see her.
The sooner I stop caring what he does .. The better it will be for me. Any advise please.