I have wronged you
I have wronged us
It does not make sense
It was not worth it
How can one so intelligent be so stupid
How can one so loved hurt the source of that love
I do not have answers to the how could it happen
Just the reality that it has
The new mystery
Why is she still here
Why am I still loved
The facts, the sad and most wonderful facts
I am not trusted
I am not believed
I am loved and she is still here
Every day, mine
I see her at home
I see her before I sleep
And especially when I wake
She is mine
And I love her
More than I can ever explain
Always, tell the other BS! Always!
"It's hard to be in love when you can't tell lies"!
It is beautiful, remorseful, caring and honest.
lucy17, revel in the beautiful words and understanding from your H.
I hear this;
he has heard you
he understands the severity of what he's done
he's working on himself
he's thinking about you and what he's done when you don't know it
he's focused on the negative choices he's made and not romanticizing his A
he's reaching out to you in a real way
he's being vulnerable with/to you
he's telling you that he's sorry, but more importantly WHAT he's sorry for
he is in awe of who you are and your love for him
he respects you
he loves and appreciates you
Dear god, just take all of that awesomeness and bathe in it. Be happy when happiness is so scarce.
I think you must be a truly wonderful person, and your generosity and intelligence are the only reason your H has this beautiful opportunity.
Smile, be loving to your H and take his loving words. You deserve it.
[This message edited by lucy17 at 6:06 PM, November 9th (Saturday)]