No, stop analyzing this!
It is beautiful, remorseful, caring and honest.
lucy17, revel in the beautiful words and understanding from your H.
I hear this;
he has heard you
he understands the severity of what he's done
he's working on himself
he's thinking about you and what he's done when you don't know it
he's focused on the negative choices he's made and not romanticizing his A
he's reaching out to you in a real way
he's being vulnerable with/to you
he's telling you that he's sorry, but more importantly WHAT he's sorry for
he is in awe of who you are and your love for him
he respects you
he loves and appreciates you
Dear god, just take all of that awesomeness and bathe in it. Be happy when happiness is so scarce.
I think you must be a truly wonderful person, and your generosity and intelligence are the only reason your H has this beautiful opportunity.
Smile, be loving to your H and take his loving words. You deserve it.