I'm going through a slump. NB is crappy lately, having a hard time believing that love actually exists. Or if it does, it will never be for me, self worth issues and still fighting with xwh who cancels visitation 3 days prior, blames me for not offering to transport (including pay for airfare
wtf or drive three and a half hours each way so he can see them. It's written in divorce he pays transportation costs and transports for his once a month!) as if I have tons of free time and he is the only one on the planet who works for a living because he has to pay ME SO MUCH MONEY. He has one full time job no parenting yet tries to tell me everything I do wrong in regards to that. He has someone to do his dirty work and someone to share bills with an additional income. Ok that stupid fucktard I have three jobs and no help. Single mom, full time employee, part time student in one of the hardest majors on campus. Kids with mental health issues (again he blames me for), hormonal teens, I do no social activities because I am either exercising, studying, at work or asleep FML!, keep up a large house including yard work and making it sale ready in one year, doing all repairs and maintenance and yard work. Mr. Narc has one job and none of these things supposed to see his kids once a month, cancels citing work and money, when last month went on vaca with nw/fow and blasted pics all over FB where his kids could see them.
gee dad can go on vacation with stepwhore but can't see us one time a month? When confronted he says I was snooping on him and that I need to get over the fact that he is married now and his vaca is none of my business. Ugh that makes me want to PUKE.
If he were the last man on earth I would go play for the other team. He is disgusting to me. Ow/nw believes this too. It is one of the biggest distortions I have ever heard in my life! No way in hell! none of those things are true. The girls told me these things I don't give a flip what he does except that it hurts their feelings being ditched like that.
SO of one year and I are not back together yet will do a mutual activity together this weekend. He is so confusing to me. One thing I am confident there is no one else...though that doesn't help me figure out what to do or how I really feel.
My point of posting this is for someone to tell me it does get better
. Everyday I have to fake positive and it's getting old. Everything is too hard I have no fun relaxation or social time- ever. Share with me how you had a NB slump, tried with your best effort only to keep struggling, have obstacles thrown in your way and how you made it through it. That would be great.
Thanks a lot.