Two years ago tomorrow my world stopped. What I thought was forever was not. It was the day before my birthday. How am I ever going to reclaim my birthday and the 3-day weekend that we always did something on?
I am struggling this weekend. Just had surgery 3.5 weeks ago. Not allowed to exercise, so I can't do that. DS is at a friends till this evening so I can't take an anti anxiety pill.
I am not ok yet. I still am at loss to get my joy back.
I still can't wrap my head around the fact that he is happily living with ow#3. How does that happen? One minute he is with ow#1 begging her to leave her spouse, he will take care of her kids, I find out, she dumps him and 2 weeks later he is with ow #3. He moves into her house 2 months later (not even filed divorce yet). They are engaged about the same time. SHE has never even met his son! I go over and over how did this happen? Am I so horrible that he could find at least 2 other women who he would rather spend time with other than me? We had been together 20 years. It took us five years to get married. Now he can commit to someone in 2 months?
Honestly, after all this sh** I need some validation. I want someone to care about me. All the things I thought were so important to him and our family he just through out!
I guess I really need help on taking my birthday back. I can't have this terrible memory every year.
WS: Just a squished bug on the window of my life!
Divorced-Let my new beginning start
They have a choice: they can live in my new world, or they can die in their old one." — Daenerys Targaryen