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 blue8888 (original poster new member #40896) posted at 7:51 AM on Sunday, November 10th, 2013

How do I just stop caring? It kills me that he still talks to her. I don't want to hurt so much anymore. I wish there was a switch to just turn it off. I guess I don't want to be like him though, he doesn't care that he hurts me and that it is wrong for him to talk to a 19 yr old. Sorry, this is all just rambling. I hate feeling this way.

Me- BW 31, WH- 29
M 11 yrs Together 13
2 kids (special needs)
Last Dday 9/26/13 EA w/ 19 yr old OW, too many prior EAs to list, one he kissed
Divorcing
My value hasn't decreased based on his inability to see my worth.

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nomistakeaboutit ( member #36857) posted at 8:03 AM on Sunday, November 10th, 2013

he doesn't care that he hurts me

It's hard. I can see you're hurting. I'm sorry for your pain

However, people who love you DO care if they hurt you. Sorry.

Me: BH 65.........Her: WW 55
DD: 15.......DS: 12. (5 and 2 on DDay)
Married for six years.
DDay: 12-25-11 Divorced: 7-15-12
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 blue8888 (original poster new member #40896) posted at 8:18 AM on Sunday, November 10th, 2013

Thank you. I don't understand that either. How can he not love me after 13 yrs together? I just don't understand.

Me- BW 31, WH- 29
M 11 yrs Together 13
2 kids (special needs)
Last Dday 9/26/13 EA w/ 19 yr old OW, too many prior EAs to list, one he kissed
Divorcing
My value hasn't decreased based on his inability to see my worth.

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Holly-Isis ( member #13447) posted at 12:29 PM on Sunday, November 10th, 2013

He might, in some pathetic way, but he loves himself more.

Go to the Healing Library > BS FAQs > #11 aka the 180.

Those steps will help you detach. It will be hard at first but once your focus is off of him and on yourself it will begin to get easier.

"Being in love" first moved them to promise fidelity: this quieter love enables them to keep the promise. *CS Lewis*

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suckstobeme ( member #30853) posted at 12:43 PM on Sunday, November 10th, 2013

I'm so sorry. I know how much it hurts and the confusion that surrounds their ability to ignore or disregard our pain and just do whatever it is they want, as if we just never existed. It's cruel and abusive.

You are a real and caring human with a core of authentic feelings. For that reason, unfortunately, you can't just turn it off and stop caring. That's dysfunctional and that's what they do.

The only way to get past it is to go through it.

I don't know the details of your situation, but if he's still living there with you or you're still having lots of contact with him, that's the first thing to stop. Whatever you want to call it, 180, NC except for kids/finances, etc., start it immediately. Turn away from him to focus on what needs to be done, the changes that need to be made, and helping your kids get through the transition.

Now is the time to protect yourself. See a lawyer if you haven't already done so to protect your financial interests. Implement the 180 to protect your heart from more hurt.

It will get better, but it's a process. I promise, one day, you will have gone through it and you will see him for what he is - a selfish, disordered, empty, black soul. You and your kids deserve better. The 19 year old OW? She's about to learn a big lesson about predatory men.

BW - me
ExWH - "that one"
D - 2011
You get what you put in, and people get what they deserve.
Hard as it may be, try to never give the OP any of your power or head space.

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cantgetup ( member #36146) posted at 1:09 PM on Sunday, November 10th, 2013

So sorry. You're right to be hurt. If he is still

in contact with her, then you need to remove

him from your life and home. Not necessarily

permanently, because sometimes they come

around. But you will have to move forward

as if he won't. It's hard, but it will save you and

your family from certain hell. I see your tag

line says you have 2 special needs kids? How

are the doing? I see on her a lot of men who

have A, and their BS is battling a disease, in

chemo, just suffered the death of a loved one

and other health crises. They have had an A

because they can't deal with the reality of

their difficult life. Do you think that is the case

Here? If so your odds are better than most that

he will turn around. But you have to be willing

To end the marriage in order to get there.

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