[This message edited by nomadlady at 11:33 AM, November 10th (Sunday)]
Be kind to yourself, honey. You can make it through this if you put your self care first, drop the unreasonable expectations, and listen to what your body and your emotions are telling you day by day.
“The most difficult times for many of us are the ones we give ourselves.”
― Pema Chödrön
We did start some new holiday traditions. My H and I now cook the holiday goodies together to give to friends. Before, that was something I did alone. It does give us time together and we enjoy the memories. His first pecan pies were extra buttery as he doubled the required butter....of course we still laugh about that.
Just go slow and do what feels comfortable.
I can't afford much, but have bought new Christmas tree decorations etc so that it doesn't look the same as before (my WH has left). We're also going to have cheese fondue for Christmas dinner with Christmassy type things to dip into it, so that it feels different than before. Trying to start some new traditions...all to stop it reminding me of when we were a happy family (or so I thought).
But I'm still expecting it to hurt and I'm going to let myself have a good old cry once the children are in bed.
Took a while, but I like the me I am, without him