If you know me you'd know I HATE being in front of the camera. I am so uncomfortable with having my picture taken. However I have almost no photos with my mom as a child and I want different for my son. I want photos so he can see how much I love him and to have something special to look at when he is older. He's not going to care about how I look. Just that I was here for him.
So I booked a photo session with a great photographer. It's silly but I want someone to catch our new beginning on film. Show that we survived and conquered. Everything is not perfect yet but we have started a new beginning: my son and I. I'm excited but also nervous. Hoping it'll live up to my admittedly high expectations. For once I want great photos of myself and my son (he's a cutie pie so I know I'll have good ones of him by himself but I want some of us together too) but he's a busy and fast toddler and I'm full of insecurities (I'm told I'm beautiful but I only see flaws,crippling low self esteem) but I knew if I waited until I feel beautiful I'd never get it done so I just booked for this coming week.
All that rambling to say: stepping out of my comfort zone and catching some memories for my son and I on camera. Such a small thing but somehow translating into a big step for me. Putting myself out there (I avoid photos like the plague) and it feels good despite my crazy silly anxiety over being photographed