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User Topic: Booked a photoshoot
BrokenDaisy
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Default  Posted: 1:25 PM, November 14th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

If you know me you'd know I HATE being in front of the camera. I am so uncomfortable with having my picture taken. However I have almost no photos with my mom as a child and I want different for my son. I want photos so he can see how much I love him and to have something special to look at when he is older. He's not going to care about how I look. Just that I was here for him.

So I booked a photo session with a great photographer. It's silly but I want someone to catch our new beginning on film. Show that we survived and conquered. Everything is not perfect yet but we have started a new beginning: my son and I. I'm excited but also nervous. Hoping it'll live up to my admittedly high expectations. For once I want great photos of myself and my son (he's a cutie pie so I know I'll have good ones of him by himself but I want some of us together too) but he's a busy and fast toddler and I'm full of insecurities (I'm told I'm beautiful but I only see flaws,crippling low self esteem) but I knew if I waited until I feel beautiful I'd never get it done so I just booked for this coming week.

All that rambling to say: stepping out of my comfort zone and catching some memories for my son and I on camera. Such a small thing but somehow translating into a big step for me. Putting myself out there (I avoid photos like the plague) and it feels good despite my crazy silly anxiety over being photographed


Me BxW, him SA NPD WxH
1 wonderful toddler - sole legal custody to me and supervised visitation to xwh.
DDay 01/2012
10/2013 Finally Divorced!!

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She11ybeanz
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Funny  Posted: 1:42 PM, November 14th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

That's awesome! I fully intend on sitting on santa's lap with my daughter in about a month.... is that weird??


"Sometimes your knight in shining armor ...is just a douchebag in tin foil!!"

ME - BW - 35
HIM - XWH - 39
D day: November 15th, 2009
Married: 5 Years, together 8
Divorced: December 13th, 2010
New Beginning: Piper/8-3-12


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Phoenix1
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Default  Posted: 3:13 PM, November 14th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I hate pics as well, and avoid at almost all cost. Have been that way my whole life. But I had professional family photos taken in August of just me and the kids, our new family unit, so I could look at them in my office. We ended up have a great time doing it with a lot of laughs and I LOVE the pics. Those represented my new beginning, and I am SO SO happy I did that!

You will be thrilled that you stepped out of your comfort zone to do it for your son, but you will enjoy it as well. That has been one of the best things I could have done, and grandparents are each getting a framed copy for Christmas gifts as well (XMIL is just getting pic of the kids without me)!


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XPOS - too many OW/OCs over 20+yrs
Kids - DDs 23,18 -DS20 Deceased
M Dissolved 2013

This above all: to thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man ~ Shakespeare, Hamlet


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ChoosingHope
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Default  Posted: 3:17 PM, November 14th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

How great! Just think of the memories you'll capture. I wish I had taken photos of myself and my children when they were younger. I was the family photographer and I'm never in any of the shots.

Have fun - I would love to do this too!


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BrokenDaisy
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Default  Posted: 5:51 AM, November 15th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Shelly not weird at all! Lol

Thanks for sharing Phoenix! That is exactly what I am hoping to get out of this

@choosinghope same with me. I am always behind the camera but wanted to change that so my son has photos of us together. Hopefully I'll be happy with the end result!


Me BxW, him SA NPD WxH
1 wonderful toddler - sole legal custody to me and supervised visitation to xwh.
DDay 01/2012
10/2013 Finally Divorced!!

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