Our SA is finalized in Oct. That is my choice and the only choice I have.
So we are separated. But life is not pretty at this point. Weekend is always the most difficult one for me with three young children.
XWH is in a Philippine again now to be with OW, he is going again three weeks for Christmas and New Year. Vs I am scared to think about the holidays!
He doesn't care about the kids, he asked me to bring my five years old daughter with him, I said no, no chance. Especially with typhoon and many death there, absolutely No.
But why it still bothered me so much what he is doing???? My 5 year old daughter kept on telling me it is OW's BD, it breaks my heart to hear that. I told her OW took daddy away from us.
I even went OLD and met this nice gentleman, but it did not help either...... I do not know what I want, sometimes I wish I did not pushed him to finalize the SA....so confused and lost! Tears.....The shit is so hard!
I am just so sad and lonely I guess. So when the pain is going to end?!
Hugs needed please!