Yep. I have been sad lately. WH doesnt want to know about it much. Sometimes.
Today we drove to work. He had a meeting. There is this woman he works with SOMETIMES, and I dont like him tlaking or being around her. Saw her walk into the building at the same time. I texted him saying I saw that. He said sorry and that he loved me. I told him he probably talked to her (he claims they dont talk much at all).
At break I questioned him about the meeting. I questioned him about the girl. I guess I went overboard, he said he was being interrogated. And that if something happened he would tell me, I made a remark about the A, and that he has to build trust. He got mad. He got mad at me for friending a old woman in his dept on Facebook, saying I dont really know her (I met her and we have seen each other a couple times and she stops and talks to me and knows my family) and he got mad that i didnt tell him. I told him I didnt think it was a big deal, and he accused me to doing it ONLY TO SPY on him. I told him if he doesnt have anything to hide, why think its spying? And no I didnt add her for that.
We walked away mad, and he said we needed to talk more at lunch and I ruined our break.
He texted me saying I think I can be very mean to him and he just take it. I hurt his feelings about the trust thing. He said he was angry.
i folded like I always do, and texted him back that i was sorry and I love him etc etc and I do trust him some and I overreacted etc etc.
I am so scared for him to be mad at me, and I hate him not talking to me, and i fear he will leave me. So I always fold and apologize.
And even know Im freaking out because I am so scared he will leave me, threaten to leave me, be mad at me, etc....It scares me to death. I do love him and i hurt from what he did. Even tho he is making everything all about him, I still cant hold my ground.