Hi, rhedz, I am so sorry you are dealing with such big things in your life. What alot to cope with. Is your family anywhere near you? I would depend on everyone else to support you, but your WS will just take away from what peace you can muster as long as you think or talk to him. It's just too bad he can't be there for you.
Try to put your focus on you, not him, and take each day as it comes taking care of you.
Please post this in general or just found out so you get more replies.
You're in my thoughts.