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Shocked2believe (original poster member #41010) posted at 12:58 PM on Thursday, November 21st, 2013
Just really down today and don't mind if no-one replies.
It must be extremly hard to remove your own head from your own a#s? Otherwise you may have then already done it?
I'm truly struggling to watch you on your own road to self destruction without even a backwards glance to the one's who worship and love you most in the world. Our precious boys. And because I love you so much I'm really battling to come to terms with this all.
What is the image you see when you look in the mirror? Is it the image you expect and like? I love that person or should i say I love the shell of the man reflected within that mirror, the man I once knew inside and out. What made you wish to change? Our 'stale' marriage as you put it? Excitement of the unknown? I wonder when all your 'friends' have gone (Christmas holidays etc.) what regrets you may have? But of course this is none of my concern and as I cannot predict the future and I'm certainly unable to answer any of these questions.
This has hurt more than I can express but only I have the power to change how I deal with it and I'm battling to come to terms with it all. Always hoping and wishing I'd see a glimpse of the person who made me whole. It is one of the most difficult trials I've ever had to endure. Sharing yourself with a second person.
Me:BS Married 15 years
Him: WH - EA/PA with now married OW
'If you come into my life, the door is open; If you leave my life, the door is open; Just one request, don't stand in the doorway and block the traffic"
MovingUpward ( member #14866) posted at 1:07 PM on Thursday, November 21st, 2013
(((Hugs)))
Very nicely put. Ever thought of printing that out and giving it to him?
PinkJeepLady ( member #37575) posted at 1:17 PM on Thursday, November 21st, 2013
So thoughtful and insightful. I would second the idea of printing and giving to him if you think it would be a good idea.
I have a very hard time understanding "what about the kids?" also. I also have asked WH what he sees when he looks in the mirror, it seems that they don't look too closely doesn't it?
I wish you strength and courage as you carry on with your precious boys.
Please take care of yourself, you sound like a wonderful, bright, kind person! Hang in there.
Me: BW Him: FWH
DDay June 1st 2012
cheated with prostitutes overseas
Reconciled - thought so, but now divorcing
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