Just really down today and don't mind if no-one replies.
It must be extremly hard to remove your own head from your own a#s? Otherwise you may have then already done it?
I'm truly struggling to watch you on your own road to self destruction without even a backwards glance to the one's who worship and love you most in the world. Our precious boys. And because I love you so much I'm really battling to come to terms with this all.
What is the image you see when you look in the mirror? Is it the image you expect and like? I love that person or should i say I love the shell of the man reflected within that mirror, the man I once knew inside and out. What made you wish to change? Our 'stale' marriage as you put it? Excitement of the unknown? I wonder when all your 'friends' have gone (Christmas holidays etc.) what regrets you may have? But of course this is none of my concern and as I cannot predict the future and I'm certainly unable to answer any of these questions.
This has hurt more than I can express but only I have the power to change how I deal with it and I'm battling to come to terms with it all. Always hoping and wishing I'd see a glimpse of the person who made me whole. It is one of the most difficult trials I've ever had to endure. Sharing yourself with a second person.
Me: BS Married 11 years, together 21
Him:WH - EA (PA?) with engaged COW.
'If you come into my life, the door is open; If you leave my life, the door is open; Just one request, don't stand in the doorway, you're blocking the traffic'