Let me first say this...I am completely lost and devastated.
On October 25th 2013, I was contacted by an anonymous message that my wife and a doctor she works with were having an inappropriate relationship. In any other situation, I would have been irate because I am a jealous and untrustworthy person by nature. In this instance, I tried my best to be someone who would listen. My wife told me that they were just friends and I had nothing to worry about. I knew in my heart this was not the truth. I asked her to show me her emails from work and she did, there were several, nothing overt, but certainly not emails that would indicate this was a professional relationship only.
I kept asking questions and the story kept changing. This is normal for my wife as she struggles with the truth. Finally on Monday, November 18th, she said there was a PA and it was a ONS back in February of 2011. I am devastated but I love my wife with all of my heart and soul and I have zero desire to end this marriage.
My current struggles are that I'm still not sure that I have the entire truth and while I will do whatever I can on my end to work on this, I just don't feel like I can until I know the truth. She has been outright lying to my face about this, how will I ever know when I have the entire truth?
She told me that the PA was at work and they work in the same building, except now she is on midnights...
How in this world can I watch her go to this place and be away without a piece of me dying everytime she walks out that door?
Please help me. I'm lost and empty