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Lostinthismess (original poster member #39210) posted at 7:07 AM on Monday, November 25th, 2013
It doesn't matter how small, the TT is like a knife to the heart. I can't do anymore. All of a sudden the little fact that I said didn't fit, didn't make sense, that he swore all along was nothing was friggin something! I can't do it. It means everything to me. He's nothing to me right now 
less than that if possible. I knew I couldn't trust him. Every half truth just proves it 
'You just keep living, until you are alive again'
'I don't want perfect, I want honest'
headdesk ( member #40787) posted at 7:10 AM on Monday, November 25th, 2013
So sorry. The TT (and outward lies) were the worst of it for me. I am so sorry you're getting the run around. Are you wanting to give 'one last chance' to come clean or just that's it, you're done?
Take care of yourself. Lawyer up. (((mess)))
Me: 39
WH: 42
DDay:Sep 19 2013 (only TT of EA)
Oct 4th 2013 revealed PA through snooping.
Marred 16 years, together for 20. Looking to R at this time. We have awesome kids (12/14).
markyall ( new member #37808) posted at 3:43 PM on Monday, November 25th, 2013
The TT is still ruining me. I don't think there is a "come clean" option, not completely, don't know if it is fear, guilt, shame or maybe even compassion that holds it back but it has made it that even at the most sincere moments I'll never trust there is not more
Good Luck
Me:BH 43
Her:WS 37
two kids-still in school
Dday 052512
Lostinthismess (original poster member #39210) posted at 4:01 PM on Monday, November 25th, 2013
He said 'more truth' and I got tunnel vision. All I could hear was the blood in my ears. I just can't keep going through this. I was doing good. I was calmer. I had gained 5 lbs back. Now I have the stabbing stomach pains again. I'm just not cut out for this.
'You just keep living, until you are alive again'
'I don't want perfect, I want honest'
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