I think I'm done with my WW. Two d-days, TT, and broken NC (look it up in my history, worst Break) are just too much for me.
I think I may be making a rash decision, but the broken NC was the last straw. She apologized to HIM and blamed the break on ME. She ever so gently left the door open to see him again. I told her if she contacted him again that I would leave.
She said she needed closure. She said she didn't think I'd find out. That's betrayal of trust plain and simple. How can I ever trust her again when she promised complete openness and honesty and than did this?
She said it was innocuous and the last time she'd contact him. Guess what? There is no way I can believe it. I 100% feel I can't ever trust her again, as the person she is now.
I need to live my own life now. If she comes back in a year a changed person, realizes how much she lost and how much I loved her, maybe I would consider taking her back.
But right now this is about me and my sanity. I can't be on watch everyday all day. It's unfair to me. I'm 27 and can move on from this.